Have
you ever felt like you want to say so much but you can’t quite express yourself
in words? Well, I often do. I often feel like there’s so much I want to share
but when it comes down to it, when I’m sitting in front of the screen and ready
to start typing, my mind draws a blank. I can’t seem to capture what I want to
share, I can’t seem to put them into words and next thing I know, it’s been
weeks since my last post.
And
then there’s the feeling that what I spend time writing about goes unnoticed
and unappreciated because face it, in this age of social media, most people
have just stopped reading. They don’t want to spend time reading, they just
want to look at pictures and hit ‘like’. They may offer some comments on a
tweet or an IG post but that’s it. Look around you and you see zombies walking
around, fixated on their smartphones. One speaker at the leadership
conference I attended last month said that it’s a shame that we have invented some
of the brilliant smartphones around and yet most of us use them to play games
or check social media. Yes, of course, it’s everyone’s choice how they choose to
spend their time but while technology can be smarter over time, it does not help
people become smarter. Anyway, I digress. What I want to say (and have been unsuccessful
in saying) is that no wonder many bloggers have stopped blogging. It takes too
much time and effort to sit down and write and share your thoughts when hardly
anyone has the inclination to read what you have to share.
But
then again, I ask myself, do I write to satisfy another person? Do I write to be
popular, to be liked, for my posts to be read and enjoyed and shared? No, I write
because I want to, because I love writing, because I need to express myself,
because I want to share my experience and because sometimes I find it easier to
express myself in writing than by talking. I know my readership is a dismal
number but this doesn’t really bother me because I know I’m no Jeffery Deaver
or Jo Nesbo or Karin Slaughter. It has never bothered me before so it shouldn’t
start to bother me now. I do want to be wittier, I want to inject humour and I want
my posts to be interesting so even though I’ve been blogging for some time now,
I’m still learning to be a better writer.
Blogging may no longer be the ‘in’ thing but I’ll continue doing it until I lose interest and decide to stop altogether. I may not post as regularly as before but I will try my best not to disappear completely. You haven’t seen the last of me. Yet.
