I
used to be very invested in Arsenal, so much so my mood would swing to mirror
the result. I used to be very affected and would get depressed for days following
a loss. If, on the other hand, we enjoyed a run of wins, I’d be happy and would
peruse the online articles tirelessly. Mummy used to tease me by asking what
was in it for me whatever result Arsenal posted. And yes, she had a point, for
win, lose or draw, I don’t get anything from it. Not a penny from the club or
the players for the time I invested watching them. Anyway, I don’t expect
anything out of my support. A run of wins is enough for me and of course I would
so love it if they could finally get the monkey off their back and kill it once
and for all.
I
have, over time, learnt to handle the defeats. I still don’t find them
acceptable but I no longer sulk or be in the doldrums for days as I used to. And
I can understand that there are days when the team plays badly because we are
all affected by moods and other factors (confidence or lack of, opportunities,
fit players etc).
But
my. March 2014 was a horrible month. We kicked off with a defeat to the
despicable Orcs and it didn’t improve save for the win over Everton in the FA
Cup quarter-final and over our bitter rivals, and draws against Bayern Munich,
Swansea and Citeh. But the pasting we received was enough to make me feel utterly
numb. So numb that I wonder how much further we have to fall (how many goals we
have to lose by) and I was slowly losing my religion. And April didn’t start
any better either with the away defeat to Everton.
And
as only Arsenal are capable of being, we played poorly against Wigan. But at
least we rallied and worked hard to press for an equaliser. And as we know, we
are now going to Wem-ber-ley!
♪♫ ♫ Que sera sera
Whatever
will be, will be
We’re
going to Wem-ber-ley
Que
sera sera
What
will be, will be ♪♫ ♫
*Losing
My Religion, as you may well know, is a hit song for R.E.M. It is about someone
who pines for another. It’s unrequited love, what have you. Just like my
unrequited love for Arsenal so I think the title of this post is rather apt.
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