I
believe that God won’t test us with something that is beyond our ability to
shoulder. I believe that God is near to me and I believe that He will help,
protect and heal me. I believe that God will help me get through this; after
all, He’s helped me gone through worse times before.
So
I will survive this setback. I had already told myself some time back that if I
didn’t manage to find a significant other and get married in year X, I would
interpret it is me having no jodoh. And I’m fine with that if that’s what God
has planned for me. I had been alone (but not lonely!!) before you came into my
life and I could go back to being alone again. Heck, I travel alone too and
cherish the me-time and my own company. After all, it’s not as if we met every
weekend anyway. So don’t worry about me. I’m fine now. I believe that I’m meant
to be where I am at this point in time. Just like with everything else, I shall
make the best of this situation and pray God will help me cope. After all, everything
happens for a reason.
I’m
not arrogant enough to say that I can live all alone until I die. Because we
all need companions: friends, family members, work colleagues (even if some
people may think I’m already antisocial now but I’ve passed the stage of caring
about that). I’m sure it’d get harder later on where I would need help in my
golden years if I’m blessed with long life. And never say never. I may still
meet an unattached man who wants me to be his significant other.
I
will make it, insyaAllah. I will survive this, insyaAllah. I know I’ll survive,
stay alive and stand on my own. I won’t indulge in any self-endangering
activities or punish myself. I love myself too much to do all that crap. I have
God by my side and He will help me through this. I might have a setback, I
might be emotional and be weepy and teary at times, I might have my ups and
downs but I will make it through. I will make it and God will help me make it.
It’s
only life after all. We’ll all get through it.
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And
yesterday, another bloke just confessed me he likes me. He even asked if I didn’t
notice it. But why? Why would any guy want to like me, with my quick temper and
emo yoyo? Why now? What am I supposed to say/do/feel?
Honestly, if you ask me, I’ve had enough of the male species for now.
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